[ .. ngh. She knows why he's saying it, that's what makes it so difficult to just swallow. Since he died, and since she thought that was her fault - she only told him it in that much detail, after all.. ]
I know that. [ But she sounds a little like a grumpy kid that's just relunctant to agree - and if they do, it's only for the sake of agreeing. ]
I'll do better this time. [ 'this time' since.. well, this is a subject she can mostly talk only with him about, after all -- she respects him a lot, not to mention that she still feels like she owes him big time, so.. ]
[ ...and she's still torn up over that. Admittedly, he's tried to brush it off himself, knowing they'd have to fight again like this- but it's still hard to talk about ]
... [ There's a 'nngghh' sort of sound, as if she's trying to convince herself - since she knows he's right, she really does - but it's just.. difficult. ]
Fine. I'll.. just try to not think about it. Just this once. If that means I'll be able to do my best more..
That's difficult in the middle of all this though. I mean.. it's not just a normal battle, this is a real war, right..? Even though they've been talking about it all this time, it's still different when it actually happens.
.. You better be trying extra hard to not die though then, got it?! If you do, then I'll.. I'll.. [ there's a strange sound that almost sounds like a near-sob, except she's not really crying.. ] .. I'll kick your ass to hell and back myself, okay?!
[ This is the hardest moment, since she's the same - she just wants to make sure her friends are okay, but watching over everyone at the same time is nearly impossible.. ]
.. See you later. [ At least that means they'll have to talk some other time. This won't be the end, no matter what happens. ]
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I'm just helping out, that's all! A lot of people are counting on me.
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...If something happens, you can't blame yourself. We'll need everyone we can get.
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I know that. [ But she sounds a little like a grumpy kid that's just relunctant to agree - and if they do, it's only for the sake of agreeing. ]
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[ at least he hopes she'll be ]
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[ she ponders for a moment whether she should ask it, but.. after some good moments and a deep breath, she manages to force it out. ]
You trust me, right..?
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I do.
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.. I promise..
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You did fine back then. You'll do fine now.
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No, I have to do better than that! If I don't, then-.. then people might die again..!
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...I've told you, you didn't do anything wrong there. Don't think about that now.
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Fine. I'll.. just try to not think about it. Just this once. If that means I'll be able to do my best more..
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I'm already trying my hardest, just watch me!
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[ This is the hardest moment, since she's the same - she just wants to make sure her friends are okay, but watching over everyone at the same time is nearly impossible.. ]
.. See you later. [ At least that means they'll have to talk some other time. This won't be the end, no matter what happens. ]
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[ And he turns it off with a click. He'll have to put this on the back of her mind for now. ]